Well it’s so close to afternoon I thought I’d go ahead and acknowledge my procrastination. But is it procrastinating if one is busy doing other things? It’s been almost 6 years since I had this site up and working daily, and then fear snuck in and I heeded its call.
I was in a Bikram yoga class and a woman quoted me. She looked into my eyes and with a sparkle she said, “..yada yada..wom wom wah..ta da!” and I freaked. I was no longer anonymous. I spent years in Hollywood trying not to be seen. I put up a website so I could whisper my truths. Last night I even had a dream about my fear of being discovered. What’s that about?
Yeah, I know that great quote about our greatest fear isn’t not getting to be our wonderful self, but it’s actually succeeding in being that successful self. (Gee worst job of paraphrasing ever:) Translation – we are afraid of success!
And my problem is exasperated by the fact that I really could give a rat’s ass if someone is successful if I don’t like him or her anyway. Who cares who we are, or what we become, or whatever if the heart is not present for the interaction. Come on, who cares about our President or the latest sport hero or movie star anyway? We lost respect for titles and names when they lost respect for what the title description entailed.
My heroes are those that can be present throughout the day and enjoy it, without judging it or manipulating it or abusing it in any way. See my hero wouldn’t even put specifications on their hero. They’d simply say, “I like that guy/girl/human/animal being.”
So please have patience with my latest attempt at being present with you. Say a prayer for me that I learn how to apply the audio only tab and Paypal donations button and a way to have a video of the solar system floating before your eyes.
I love looking at the stars, the firmament kind. Wanna take a walk tonight? I’ll meet you in the center of the cup in the big dipper, okay? Okay.
See you soon!